It appears that another military move may be on the horizon. This knowledge of impending change brought about a very familiar cycle of thoughts and feelings. Where will we go? How long will this take? What does the future hold? After the questions, in come the secret hopes and desires. Since we get to list our most desired places to be stationed I get very fixated on hoping for those destinations and fantasizing about what it would be like to live ____ or ____. Then shortly after that first brush of excitement. The fear starts nagging, the feelings of uncertainty and worry that we won’t get what we want that we won’t be happy. And thus starts a cycle of stress and distress. I’ve decided this isn’t necessary. Really, Go figure!
While listening to my lesson tonight. Pastor was talking about laying aside our will for God’s. It sort of hit me right there that my main source of stress in each of our moving experiences was my desire to have things the way I want. If I laid aside the desire for any specific outcome and instead focused on being excited for what God has already chosen, I might go into this whole thing with stability instead of fear. I’ve decided I don’t “want” any particular outcome no dream destinations or care over when it happens. I “want” to ride this one out with the Lord. I’ve seen enough to know that He has carefully planned everything and never left me or failed me. I don’t want my plan this time. I want His.
So, I’m VERY excited! I’m going to be where the Lord sends me. It’s never where I expect and always full of challenges. All my roads lead to eternity with God anyway.
I’ll keep you posted,