I’m so happy to be able to write a post! Our main computer is not working at the moment so we had to hook up the old lap-top to the internet and that seems to be doing the job for now.
We have been learning about thought testing in Bible class. This has brought into focus the mine-field of my mind and the contradictions between what I want to think and what I actually think in daily life. My actions and decisions are the proving ground of my thought patterns. What are my true priorities? What is it that I daily love and devote myself to? I can say that it’s not what I want it to be most of the time and I can also say that I don’t know yet what it really looks like to be living the spiritual life to the max. My imagination of what the spiritual life looks like in a person’s daily life is mostly silly religious pictures of meditation and outward orderliness. I have many different doctrines that show snippets of the spiritual life and I sometimes see it very clearly in Bible class but the clarity fades when faced with the onslaught of working it out in daily living. Temptations, desires, distractions and moment by moment decisions fill up the mind plus all the human viewpoint already installed in the Old Sin Nature can make it difficult to get a cohesive grasp on the bigger picture. Yet, we are not supposed to evaluate where we think we might be in spiritual growth we are supposed to press on, always facing the next moment with courage, leaving all the rest behind(oh how hard it can be to dump a jumbled confusing failure of a day at the Lord’s feet and just leave it there). We are to be getting that daily mental renewal in Bible class so that each principle can add to the next making things clearer and also cleaning out the mind from all the wrong thinking picked up since last class or even long held error.
Since we rarely give up our own ways of thinking till they fail us, thought testing can be painful but afterwards it brings incredible motivation to go forward and find out what the thinking of God is really all about.