This last year has gone by so fast. With doing school and going to Bible conference in Tucson, moving, and getting settled in TX it’s been a crazy year and it’s not over yet. We move again to our permanent duty station in CA at the beginning of Oct. I just found out yesterday when we would be able to move. We are looking forward to CA since I have some family there and of course all the great things to do in CA, especially seeing the ocean.
School has started again and my Workboxes are working wonderfully and making a big difference. The kids plow through all the drawers they can do on their own and it leaves me lots of time to do the “teaching” when necessary. I still haven’t figured out how to keep up with all the housework too but I think a perfect house is a lost cause during the school year. I’ll take going to the park over cleaning the toilets anyday! This year we are still using Prof. B math along with Saxon + the Dive Teacher, Noeo Science, The Phonics Road, Homeschool in the woods O.T. lapbook, Typing Instructor (which my son commented was fun because he likes the games and collecting things), Student Writing Intensive (IEW), and also the spelling program from The Institute for Excellence in Writing and an American History series I’ve thrown together myself. We don’t do all of this every day but when I split it up over the week it works just fine.
It will be interesting to see how things go with moving.
The disaster, the betrayal, the bad driver, the late app, the minor inconvenience, they all send me right over the edge, trying desperately to control and fix and manipulate or worry things back to the way I want them and when that doesn’t work, maybe some cursing and yelling and throwing a grown-up fit will help, or at least make me feel better. When I sit in Bible class and learn about the sure confidence I can have in the plan of God, in His promise to work all things together for my good, Rom 8:28, I nod my head in agreement. I am sure in that moment that the next time I face an unexpected difficulty I will easily recall to mind that God has everything under control, everything is for my benefit and just relax. Only, that pretty much never happens, the very next time things go wrong, I freak out. I’ve been thinking a little about why that is, and I’ve come up with a couple of reasons. First, I react and get out of fellowship with God. Secondly, I think I’m going to lose out on something. All the available data from the unhappy circumstance says that I’m going to be worse off because of whatever is going wrong. Either I’m going to suffer, (Noooooooo!) or my living circumstances will go down in some way (ensuing pity party). Thirdly, the appearance of the circumstance usually looks like it has no end in sight, so as far as I can see, everything will be bad forever-more. Once I start thinking like that it’s hard to remember any doctrine. Many times I have faced a sudden difficulty, thought that it would last forever, or that there was no way out and sure enough God fixed the problem and I felt foolish later. Then again sometimes there has been a prolonged period of suffering, God chose not to “fix” everything and in the end I learned things about God and grew in my relationship with Him in ways I never could have otherwise. What I want to get at is, that sometimes things are meant to look bad, hopeless, or endless so that I can learn not to look at the things that are seen but the things that are unseen and see things from God’s perspective or at least remember that He has a perspective I can’t see, which glorifies Him and benefits me. He promised that nothing can happen in my life that He didn’t first approve and that includes other people’s evil decisions, which affect me. It also includes my own bad decisions that hurt me too, and circumstances simply designed to challenge the mental attitude. Just a little perseverance when things look bad could go a long way.